So, to start, I have begun preparing, building up my ‘knowledge’ as I to what pursuing further studies means, as I go. That is, by applying for my Master’s degree.

For those of you who know me (and those who don’t), I am what you might call a mediocre. I graduated in 2018 and have been working as a digital practitioner ever since. Ah, to give you a little backstory, I once dreamed of becoming a diplomat. Or a reporter. Those were two roles that stuck with me, that I still vividly remember, as my dream job(s).

Long short story, my context becomes digitally-themed.

I am an INFJ, someone who constantly searches for meaning, purpose and vision. That applies to my work too. It really gets to me when the context of what I am doing is unclear. It frustrates me when I can’t see what is the bigger picture or the goal behind what I (or my team) are building. Non-transparency irritates me (and everyone as it should!). Lack of clarity isn’t just inconvenient. It’s agonizing.

Now, as I have been working for 5 years (more or less?), I realized that it’s time for me to amplify my skills, knowledge, and enhance my capacity. Not just technically, but holistically. For me, one way to do that is through pursuing a Master’s degree. As time goes on, I keep asking myself: What do I want to learn? What are the fields that I want to understand more? What do I want to do? And mind you, this process of self-understanding is a never-ending journey. You keep discovering new, intriguing things about yourself which most of it are annoying, but they’re part of you. So yeah. Hahaha.

All I know is, I want to become who’s truly good at what she does, someone who can make a real impact. Maybe, just maybe, I’m already partway there. But I know that I need to amplify myself.. holistically. I need to keep finding myself. And that might mean pushing myself to the limit into unfamiliar territory, diving deep into difficult topics I care about, in a language that is not even my own. “But even in doubt, especially when you’re so full of self-doubt, when you can’t seem to believe in yourself, just take the step” – I keep reminding myself.

Bonus photo: Letter of Acceptances with censorship for personal details 😉

University of Leeds:

University of Auckland:

The University of Melbourne:

So… where would she go?

She doesn’t have the full map yet. But she knows she wants to walk with intention. To grow deeper in her field. To chase clarity, purpose, and impact. Not just in her career, but in herself.

Maybe she’ll end up somewhere entirely unexpected. Maybe she’ll circle back to old dreams: diplomacy, storytelling, or, something in between. Or maybe, just maybe, she’s already on the right path, and the Master’s degree is just another lens to see it more clearly? To see the purpose from different perspectives but so much clearer?

Where would she go?

I believe she’ll go forward. With doubt in one pocket, and hope in the other.